Collection of Thoughts.

A Letter to the Man who has my Husband’s Heart

Dear Heart Recipient,  My name is Rochelle and you have my husband Jesse’s heart.  Jesse and I started dating when I was 18. We were together for 13 years and reside in Florida. In those 13 years prior to his untimely death, we had four children. One of which I was pregnant with when he passed. Jesse […]

Dear Jesse,

Today you have been dead for one entire year. I am living this reality but I still don’t really believe it. My brain has tried to convince me I made you up and I magically jumped from being 18 to 31. Any evidence in between isn’t validated by the person who saw me every day. […]

Vodka Water Bottle.

Did you know there is no such thing as a high functioning alcoholic? I really hate that term. It implies that somehow an alcoholic or drug addict is “functioning,” because they can keep a job, do well at a job, drive without getting a DUI, make their kids dinner. Those things. When Jesse died it […]

Fentanyl Widow.

“Okay, so, would you like to know what was in his system?” “𝙲𝚊𝚗 𝙸 𝚐𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚜?” “…sure” “𝚄𝚖𝚖𝚖………𝚖𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚓𝚞𝚊𝚗𝚊?……..𝚊𝚕𝚌𝚘𝚑𝚘𝚕?…. 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝’𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚛𝚍 𝚘𝚗𝚎?” “Fentanyl.” I knew Jesse was going to die. When I say knew, I didn’t mean December 22, 2020 at 4:20 p.m. I meant I knew if he kept acting so reckless something bad would […]


Something went wrong. Please refresh the page and/or try again.

Get new content delivered directly to your inbox.