Collection of Thoughts.


I feel as though some people struggle to understand why some people don’t get married immediately- if at all. Jesse and I were not legally married. If common law marriage still existed here we likely would be. I am not sure why it was taken away. We held each other out to be the other’s […]

Grief Adjacency

This is a term we fun, life of the party, grief-stricken people use to describe those on the outside-who are in our circle, either trying to support us, ignore us, or give us well-meaning advice. They are grief-adjacent. Lucky them. I miss being grief-adjacent. I was on that side of it quite a few times. […]


For 10 years we have done the same thing, but today will be different, like all days are now. I will probably clean afterwards. That’s all I really do now. I will wait to go to my mom’s then your moms for lunch and dinner. Even though we are all your family, I am the […]

Dark Places.

I write here when I am in my darkest thoughts. I am so very alone. So are you. We both are now just in different ways. You are in darkness. I am not sure if you feel pain? If you see me? If you know whats happening? If you see us, I know you are […]


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